The Long Way to an Early Night

Please click the photo above to play the daily videoThe morning was given over to errands, that unglamorous category of task which never makes it into anyone's account of a life but quietly fills a great deal of it. There was a list — there is always a list — and I went at it with the brisk efficiency of a man who knows the lunchtime meeting is coming and would rather not arrive at it with loose ends still trailing behind him. One forgets, sometimes, the small satisfaction of errands. The crossing-off, the steady diminishment of a column of obligations, the modest triumph of returning home with the boot full of things acquired and nothing important forgotten.

By and large it worked. Most of it was done before midday — not all, never quite all, there's always one item that slips the net and resurfaces a week later wearing an expression of mild reproach. But enough. I made the meeting with my morning's work behind me and the rare, settling sense of being ahead rather than perpetually scrambling to catch up.

The meeting did its business, lunch came and went, and then it was clinic, which had other plans for the shape of my afternoon. It ran long. These things do. There's a particular quality to a clinic that overruns — not dramatic, not disastrous, simply the slow accumulation of minutes that were always going to be needed and were never quite scheduled for. You look up and the light outside has changed character entirely, gone from the flat brightness of afternoon to something softer and lower, and you realise the day has quietly moved on without consulting you.

I finished late. Later than I'd hoped, though by now I've learned to hold my hopes loosely on that front. The drive home was the unwinding sort, the day's busyness slackening behind me with each familiar turn, and by the time I came through the door I wanted nothing more elaborate than to sit down and be fed.

Anita, with her usual good timing, had sorted dinner — jjigae, that deep and bubbling Korean comfort, all warmth and gentle heat. There are few things better, after a long day, than a stew that asks nothing of you but to be eaten. It arrived steaming and unhurried, and I ate it with the quiet gratitude of a man who has spent his reserves and is glad to have them replenished. The football, somewhere across the world, would have to carry on without my attention tonight. I hadn't the wakefulness left to give it.

And then, sensibly, an early night. No ceremony to it, no great decision — just the natural conclusion of a day that had filled itself honestly and left me pleasantly emptied. There's a kind of contentment in turning in early that the small hours never quite offer. The list mostly done, the stew warm in me, the day folded neatly away.

Some days you chase. This one I simply finished, and went gladly to bed.