Follow me on ...

Entries in reflective vlog (2)

9:31PM

A Small Venue, A Full Day

Please click the photo above to play the daily videoSunday opened on a proper sunny note, the kind of morning that seems to promise good things without actually committing to any of them out loud. Breakfast was leftover pasar malam from the night before, which is one of the underrated pleasures of a night market run — half the fun happens the following morning, reheated and somehow still better than it has any right to be.

Rounds started smooth and stayed that way, right up until the moment it looked like a clean exit was on the cards — at which point, with the sort of comic timing only a Sunday can manage, a referral came in just as the door was practically closing behind me. A brief scramble, nothing too taxing, and mercifully it didn't hold things up enough to threaten the rest of the day's plans. Managed to leave on time regardless, which felt like a small personal victory worth quietly noting.

The wedding was out in Jade Hill, Kajang — a clubhouse venue, nice enough, on the modest side as these things go, which had the knock-on effect of parking becoming its own small adventure. A fair bit of circling and creative interpretation of what constitutes a parking space before finally getting settled. The size of the venue suited the occasion rather well, though — intimate rather than sparse, the sort of do where you can actually hear the toasts without a microphone doing the heavy lifting.

Anita, meanwhile, had her own agenda running in parallel — catching up with friends from her UiTM days, the kind of reunion that needs no real excuse beyond the wedding providing a convenient reason for everyone to be in the same postcode at once. Old friendships have their own rhythm, picking back up mid-sentence as though no time had passed at all, which is roughly what happened.

The afternoon rolled on into tea at TWG with one of those same friends, a rather more genteel continuation of the day — proper tea, the kind of unhurried conversation that afternoon tea seems designed to encourage, everything slowing down a notch after the wedding's brisker pace.

By evening, the day had earned its wind-down, and we obliged early, settling in well before the night had any real ambitions of its own. Finally made proper headway on Silo — an episode down, the mystery inching forward, which felt like modest but genuine progress after a week of good intentions and insufficient energy.

Lights out with the satisfying sense of a weekend properly spent — not wasted, not overfilled, just well used. Monday's on the horizon again, as it always is, but for once it doesn't feel like something to brace against. Ready enough, which on a Sunday evening is usually all anyone can ask for.

10:10PM

Small Weather, Big Silence

Please click the photo above to play the daily videoMonday arrived exactly as advertised — with a faint sense of grievance and the particular greyness that only Mondays seem able to manufacture, regardless of what the actual sky is doing. Which, for the record, was doing rather well for itself. Sunshine in proper abundance, the kind that makes you resent being indoors at all, let alone indoors doing the specific admin of easing back into a working week.

The blues arrived on schedule, then deepened rather unexpectedly. Word came through that John C. Dvorak had died — the great cantankerous voice of the No Agenda podcast, forecaster of doom for every technology going, right up until his own hardware, as his co-host rather fittingly put it, finally gave out. Eighty years old, decades of column inches, and a manner that never once softened for anybody. There's a particular flavour of sadness reserved for voices you've had in your ears for years without ever quite meeting — familiar in that one-sided way podcasts allow, where someone becomes furniture in your commute or your kitchen without you noticing until the furniture's gone. He'll be missed, properly missed, by more people than the obituaries will ever manage to count.

The day itself didn't pause for any of that, obviously. Days rarely do. Back into the swing of things after whatever loosening a weekend allows, catching up on the accumulated business that apparently multiplies overnight regardless of how little was actually left undone on Friday. Correspondence, small fires, the general administrative residue of having been briefly elsewhere.

The afternoon tipped into properly busy — the sort of stretch where you look up and discover the light's changed character without your permission, gone from generous to slanting to that thin gold that means everyone should have gone home an hour ago. Clinic ran long, as these things periodically insist on doing, patients and paperwork both taking their own sweet time, and by the time the last of it was wrapped up the sunshine that had been so cheerfully wasted through the window had packed up entirely.

Late finish, then. The kind where the walk to the car feels vaguely accusatory, as though the day is personally disappointed you stayed so long inside it.

The evening did what evenings are for — recovery, mostly, and in this case a rather specific kind. The No Agenda tribute episode, Adam Curry alone with twenty years of shared argument and no one to argue back, was exactly as strange and moving as you'd expect. Equal parts wake and roast, which felt right for a man who'd have hated anything more solemn. Sat with a cup of something warm, listening to a community process a loss out loud, the Monday blues quietly rearranged themselves into something closer to appreciation. Not every day needs resolving into a lesson. Some just need sitting with.