A Holiday for Some

Please click the photo above to play the daily videoThere's something almost bureaucratic about a holiday that only half the country gets — Selangor still tucked up in its extended Merdeka afterglow while everyone a postcode or two over carried on as though nothing had been declared at all. SJMC fell firmly into the latter camp. No long weekend hangover there, no lingering bunting-and-lie-in energy — just Tuesday, dressed up as nothing in particular.

The clinic reflected it faithfully. Open as usual, and busier than the day's supposedly quiet reputation suggested — a fair queue of patients who'd clearly decided that other people's holidays were no reason to delay their own appointments, which is a perfectly sound piece of logic when you think about it. If anything, the mismatch worked in everyone's favour: quieter roads getting in, a full clinic once there, the sort of asymmetry that only shows up when the calendar disagrees with itself across a state line.

What struck as the day went on was how smoothly it all moved. Not the kind of smooth that gets remarked on at the time — more the kind you only notice in hindsight, once the last patient's gone and the day hasn't left behind the usual residue of minor delays and small frictions. Everything more or less ran to time, which for a full clinic is its own quiet achievement, rarely celebrated because there's nothing dramatic to celebrate. Things simply worked, in the unglamorous way things are meant to.

That kind of day has a particular reward attached to it: getting home earlier than expected, with none of the usual scramble to make up lost time. There's a specific pleasure in a commute that ends before you've mentally prepared for it to — the sort of small, undramatic win that doesn't photograph well but counts for a great deal by the evening.

And the evening, once it arrived, didn't ask for much. The tiredness had been building quietly underneath the smoothness of the day, the way it often does — not the dramatic, flattened-by-a-difficult-shift kind, just the ordinary accumulated sort that a full clinic leaves behind even when everything's gone well. So there wasn't much resistance to an early night. No attempt to squeeze extra life out of the evening, no scrolling past the point of usefulness — just the fairly sensible recognition that the body had cast its vote and the vote was for bed.

It's an easy kind of day to undersell in the retelling, precisely because nothing went wrong. No queue disasters, no scheduling chaos, no lingering half-holiday confusion bleeding into the work itself — just a state on holiday, a clinic that wasn't, and a day that got on with things efficiently enough to earn its own quiet exit. Some days give you a story. This one gave an early night, which, depending on how the week's shaping up, might be the better prize.

Catching Up, and Catching Breath

Please click the photo above to play the daily videoThe day began in good faith — a clean stretch of sun through the window, the kind of light that makes you briefly believe you're on top of things. I started with the football, as has become the habit. The World Cup unfolds mostly while we sleep out here, so mornings have turned into a sort of forensic exercise: reading the scores I missed, piecing together what the night got up to without me. It's an odd way to follow a tournament, arriving always after the fact, but I've made my peace with being a step behind the world.

The drive in belonged to Jimbo and the Totally lot, broadcasting their cheerful post-mortems from Los Angeles after every matchday. There's something pleasingly absurd about it — three or four blokes by a Californian pool, dissecting Messi and Mbappé while I sit in Klang Valley traffic with the air-conditioning labouring. They are good company, even at a distance of several thousand miles and a great many time zones. The drive passed quickly, which is rarely a thing I get to say.

And then the day, having lulled me into false confidence, showed its hand. Clinic was packed — properly, relentlessly packed, the sort of session where you look up and an hour has gone missing and the waiting room has somehow refilled itself behind your back. I worked through it with the slightly hunted feeling of a man trying to outrun his own schedule, and lost. By the time I surfaced I was late for the lunch meeting with the pharma people, arriving with apologies already forming and a plate that had clearly been waiting longer than I had.

There was no graceful pause after that. Straight from lunch into rounds, and from rounds into admissions, the afternoon folding in on itself with no obvious seam between one task and the next. It was the kind of day that doesn't so much pass as get survived — busy in a way that leaves you slightly surprised, at the end, to find you've reached it.

But reach it I did, and earlier than I had any right to expect. The admissions settled, the work behind me, I made it home with the evening still mostly intact — a small mercy that felt entirely disproportionate to the effort it took to earn.

We capped it off with a nightcap at the Gardens, the unhurried sort of outing the day had been refusing me all along. Quiet, easy, the lights low and the pace finally my own. And over it, we did the satisfying thing: finalised the August holiday. Dates settled, the shape of it agreed, that pleasant administrative glow of a plan made real. There's a particular contentment in fixing a future good thing in place — a thing to lean towards on the heavier days.

A day that ran ahead of me from the whistle, and somehow still ended kindly. I'll take the catching-up, the catching-breath, and the small promise of August.

A Holiday That Forgot to Check the Roster

Please click the photo above to play the daily videoThere is a particular irony to a public holiday that arrives for everyone except you. The Agong's birthday had emptied the roads and shuttered half the city, yet the ward, as ever, took no notice of the calendar. Patients do not observe royal occasions, and neither, it seems, does the morning round. So while the rest of the country lay in, I made my quiet pilgrimage through the wards, notes in hand, the corridors unusually hushed.

Two of the team had vanished eastward — off to a meeting in China, leaving the rest of us to redistribute the workload with the cheerful resignation of people who know complaining changes nothing. The round went smoothly enough, and by noon I was free, which on a holiday feels less like an achievement and more like an unexpected refund.

Anita and I pointed the car towards Wangsa Maju, drawn back to Alpha Angle for lunch. There is something pleasantly unhurried about returning to a place that once formed the backdrop to ordinary life. When we lived in Gombak, this was where we drifted on idle afternoons, before either of us had the sense to wonder where the years were going. The mall has changed in the small ways malls do — a shopfront here, a new signboard there — but the bones of it remain familiar, and familiarity, on a day off, is its own kind of comfort.

Lunch slid easily into groceries, as these things tend to. One does not set out to buy a trolley's worth of provisions, and yet there I was, examining the relative virtues of one cut of something against another, while Anita made the more decisive calls. We left heavier than we arrived, which is the unspoken contract of any visit to a supermarket.

From there to Mid Valley, on a mission for bedding — a phrase that sounds far grander than the reality, which was the two of us standing before a wall of identical white linen, trying to detect meaningful differences in thread counts neither of us fully understood. We chose something, eventually. We always do.

The final stop was the Apple Store at TRX, where the day's true purpose quietly revealed itself. Anita had her eye on the new MacBook Neo, and after the requisite admiring of the thing in its box, she walked out with the citrus model — a colour that manages to be cheerful without being loud, much like its new owner. There is a small ceremony to collecting a new machine: the heft of it, the promise of a clean slate, the faint suspicion that one's old habits will migrate across regardless.

We came home as the light softened, the boot full, the day quietly accounted for. Not every holiday needs to be remarkable. Some are simply for retracing old steps, buying sensible things, and watching someone you love choose a laptop the colour of marmalade. That, I think, is holiday enough.

Aidilfitri 2018

It was a quiet one this time around as we were just staying at home during the break. The initial plan to travel to Penang was shelved as the travel would be too much as the boys would be back to school on Monday - Raya was on Friday.

My father-in-law was also in not the best of health and my Sister was in Melaka with her husband’s family this time around. Just a few trips here and there but most of the time, my Mother had visitors coming. The house was never empty.

And then there was the small matter of the World Cup kicking off the night before Raya which meant sleepless nights and naps in front of the TV after plenty of food ....

My Father-in-law was a bit worse for wear when on one of the evening he was dehydrated and nearly fainted. A slight change of medications saw to that. Food was plenty though and I was sure I must have put on at least a couple of kilos, despite losing some during the fasting month.

I had a few days off after the festivities just to chill out - and do plenty of photography. For those travelling, drive safe and enjoy the time on the road ...

Starting to Wind Down

With Raya only a couple of weeks away, the motivation to grind down to do the work had somehow gone down. I still have another call to do next weekend before I would be off for a week this coming Raya.

We decided to stay in KL this time around, shelving the original plan to return to Penang. With Anita’s father still weak and my Mum’s decision not to travel, the final decision was pretty straight forward. The boys also only had a couple of days off school. So travelling did not sound like an attractive option.

We will be spending much of the Raya at Bukit Antarabangsa. I would probably be relaxing, venturing on a photo walk or two. I was sure there would be plenty of visitors over those few days, which would keep Anita occupied.

I have at least four Berbuka event next week. And come Friday would be the last on call for Ramadhan - I had a total of four. My last clinic would be on the Wednesday before Raya. Hopefully things would be quiet by next week.