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10:07PM

Rounds Before Reruns

Please click the photo above to play the daily videoNew week, same old trick the phone plays on me. Three in the morning, and it rang with the particular insistence of something that already knows you're going to answer. I did, of course — you always do, eventually, once your body remembers where the phone is and your dignity has quietly left the room. Whatever peace the rest of the night might have offered went with it.

Which is presumably why, a few hours later, the actual alarm found me fast asleep and unbothered, blissfully ignoring the very shift it was meant to usher in. There's a special kind of irony in oversleeping on a night you were up at three — as though the body, having already been inconvenienced once, decided it had done its bit and wasn't taking further requests. So it was a later start than planned, and a slightly brisker one, the sort of morning where you're dressed and out the door before your opinions about it have fully formed.

From there it was straight into rounds — no lingering over coffee, no easing in. Just the day, arriving all at once and expecting to be dealt with. That done, it was across to Oasis and on to the MSH office, which sounds like more of a journey written down than it felt at the time, though there was a fair bit of ground covered before lunch made its case for existing.

Lunch itself was the kind you're grateful for rather than savour — a pause more than a meal — before the afternoon clinic rolled in and kept things moving at the same steady clip as the morning. Looking back, it wasn't any single hour that made the day heavy; it was the accumulation, one thing quietly leaning on the next until you realised you hadn't actually stopped since sometime before sunrise. Busy is one of those words that undersells itself — it always sounds tidier than it feels.

By evening, the only sensible ambition left was to sit down and stay there. So I did what any reasonable person does after a day like that: caught up on a few more episodes of Siloa, the sort of unhurried company that asks nothing of you beyond attention, and not even all of that. There's something quietly restorative about handing your evening over to a story that isn't yours to manage — no decisions, no pace-setting, just watching things unfold at someone else's speed for a change.

Nothing about today announced itself as remarkable, and yet it had that particular density that early starts and full afternoons tend to produce — the kind of day that doesn't ask to be remembered so much as it insists on being felt in the shoulders by evening. Still, the week's opening chapter is written, the sofa delivered on its promise, and Siloa is exactly as good a way as any to let a long day finally exhale.

9:52PM

Sunday, Sorted Early

Please click the photo above to play the daily videoEarly start on a Sunday, which always feels like a small act of rebellion against the day's natural inclination to loaf. Whatever needed sorting got sorted, and by eleven the morning's business was done — that satisfying sensation of having the rest of the day ahead of you, unclaimed.

What claimed a chunk of it was a test drive — the Denza GT9, which turned out to be properly impressive, the kind of car that makes you reconsider your relationship with the accelerator pedal. Out onto the SPE to let it stretch its legs, then back via town, which gave a decent sense of it in both registers — open road and stop-start alike. The seats were the sort of comfortable that makes you notice comfortable seats, and power was not in short supply, put mildly. Whether any of that translates into an actual decision remains to be seen, but it made for an entertaining hour regardless.

From there, dim sum at Star Hill, which is about as sensible a way to follow up a test drive as exists — sit down, slow down, let someone else do the work for a while. Plates came and went in that unhurried dim sum rhythm, and on the way out we picked up some mooncake, slightly ahead of season perhaps, but never really the wrong time for one.

The afternoon settled into something quieter after that, rain arriving to underline the point — that particular grey hush that makes staying in feel less like a default and more like a decision. No complaints. Some Sundays want filling, this one wanted emptying out, and it obliged nicely.

By evening, the usual low murmur of a new week approaching had started up — nothing urgent yet, just the background awareness that tomorrow has its own agenda, regardless of how comfortably today's ended. A good one to close the weekend on, all told: fast car, good food, rain on the window, and nothing left undone.

12:08AM

Reunion Day, and a Camera in Hand

Please click the photo above to play the daily videoSunny start to the day Anita's been building towards, which felt like a decent omen, or at least the kind of thing you allow yourself to read as one. I went off for my usual rounds, the ordinary rhythm of a morning carrying on regardless of what the afternoon had planned.

Meanwhile, the machinery of the reunion was already turning — balloons and flowers delivered to the Majestic, the venue transforming itself from whatever it usually is into whatever an occasion like this needs it to be. There's something faintly theatrical about watching a room get dressed for an event, all that quiet effort going into something that will look, by three o'clock, entirely effortless.

My role for the day had been decided in advance: photographer, official and unpaid, which is its own particular kind of pressure. Everyone remembers the photos long after they've forgotten the seating plan. The event kicked off at three, though my actual cue wasn't until five, which left a stretch of waiting that photographers apparently just accept as part of the job — camera ready, moment not yet arrived, the trick being to look useful in the meantime rather than simply hover.

When the moment came, though, it went smoothly. That's really the best thing you can say about any event with this many moving parts — nothing went sideways, nothing needed rescuing, the whole afternoon unspooled the way it was meant to. Anita was happy, which was really the entire point of the day as far as I was concerned, everything else being logistics in service of that one outcome. We got the photos we wanted too — the proper ones, the kind that get looked at again in years rather than glanced at once and forgotten.

By the end of it I was thoroughly tired, the specific tiredness that comes from being on duty all day without quite realising it, camera as much a part of the afternoon as I was. But worth it, unreservedly — the sort of day where the exhaustion at the end feels less like a cost and more like proof that it mattered. Anita's reunion, properly done, properly documented, and properly over. Now for the sofa.

11:39PM

A Day That Ran Away With Itself

Please click the photo above to play the daily videoBack at the clinic today, and busy in the way that leaves no room for noticing time passing until you look up and it's somehow gone. That's the strange arithmetic of a full day — you can't point to any single hour and say that's where it went, and yet by the time you're done, the whole thing has evaporated behind you.

There's a particular kind of busy that's almost pleasant, in retrospect if not always in the moment — enough happening that the day has shape and momentum, never quite enough to tip over into anything worse than tired. Today sat comfortably in that category. One thing after another, nothing especially remarkable on its own, all of it adding up to a day that simply flew, the way they do when you're too occupied to watch the clock.

Home found Anita deep in last-minute arrangements for her reunion tomorrow — that particular flurry of activity that precedes any gathering with people you haven't seen in a while, equal parts logistics and low-grade anticipation. Bits of conversation drifted past about who was coming, what to wear, what time to leave, the sort of practical chatter that's really just excitement wearing a sensible coat.

I left her to it and got the paperwork sorted, the tail end of the day's admin finally cleared off the desk. And then, once that was done, nothing more ambitious than the balcony — evening settling in, the day's noise finally allowed to quieten down. There's something restorative about that particular spot at that particular hour, no agenda beyond sitting still and letting a busy day exhale properly before it's filed away.

Tomorrow has its own shape already forming — Anita off to her reunion, the flurry from tonight presumably continuing into the morning. But that's tomorrow's business. Tonight was just about the balcony, the quiet, and the small relief of a full day finally, properly finished.

4:15PM

Back to the Swing of Things

Please click the photo above to play the daily videoBack to work today, and back to work in the way that always feels slightly disorienting after time away — the body clocks in before the mind fully agrees to it. Small mercy: no clinic on the schedule, which meant the day could ease in rather than demand anything of me straight off the bat.

Slept decently the night before, which helped enormously. There's a particular kind of tiredness that comes from travel — not physical exhaustion exactly, more a low hum of dislocation, body still catching up with where it's supposed to be. A proper night's sleep sorts most of that out, and this one did.

The day itself was mostly paperwork, which is never the part anyone romanticises about being back, but there's a certain satisfaction in it too — the quiet, unglamorous business of clearing a backlog, ticking through the things that piled up while attention was elsewhere. It has a rhythm of its own once you settle into it, less exciting than travel, admittedly, but not without its own small pleasures. Managed to get through the lot in reasonable time, which felt like a minor triumph, the sort you don't mention to anyone because it wouldn't sound like much out loud, but that matters privately all the same.

Evening arrived with nothing more demanding than catching up on Silo, which has become one of those shows that rewards patience — slow-burning, atmospheric, the sort of thing best watched without distraction. A good way to let a first day back settle, screen glowing, mind finally allowed to idle after a day of being useful.

And that was largely it — nothing dramatic, nothing worth embellishing beyond what actually happened. Just the ordinary machinery of getting back into the swing of things, which is its own quiet accomplishment after a run of days spent somewhere else entirely. Routine has a bad reputation it doesn't entirely deserve. There's something to be said for a day that asks only the usual of you, and gets it.